Nobody questions my allegiance... And I told him the truth as it would also be the other way around...
I liked that we seemingly don't have to hide anymore... Not sure why we even did?
But this whole thing we him becoming a Lord... becoming everything I hate and fear... But then again is that not what I strive for now? Hating myself for what I must become and the things I must do to get there...
But what of us now?
The training is taking its toll seemingly he pushes me to my breaking point every time to get me to give in to the Force and I am indeed becoming better.. I feel the anger more clearly now... I feel it well up inside even when we are not training...
I think I might have gotten the wrong impression of Savirah and Telvaris though but time will tell... They are his closest friends so I need to give them the bennifit of the doubt.
Im just so confused at the moment and I feel I am loosing my focus...
I wonder if Bart has told him what he overheard... I wonder how he will react...
We didn't meet about that mind training like he had asked of me semmingly the thing with Tel took a lot more time. I came back this morning, I pretended to be asleep, don't know why really. After he started meditating I snug out and came here to the waterfall. I have been running for an hour now on and off, my body trembling with exhaustion but I won't let it get to mee...
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