This day has been a mess... I slept almost the entire night through. The nightmares seem to be less aggressive by each day that passes. And to wake up in his arms almost makes me forget...
I went to Nar Shaddaa where Legion had told me I could find him but that's a very big city. I had put on a dress because of what he said the other day.
It was nice to not hid for a moment and it worked he found me *grins* not sure if it was the dress though...
He took me to some kind of officers bar and we talked more about the fight.
Still was really not looking forward to getting my ass handed to me especially in front of others but this apparently was tradition.
Our talk also landed on more... Private subject and the more i learn off him the more i like him.
He is letting his guard down slightly i feel but i know its not entirely true cause one like him never truly does...
He complimented my dress more than once so I must have had some degree of effect...
What we talked about seems a slight blur wrapped in looks and innuendos. And i am still not sure what he meant with the "good luck" was it "om looking forward to it" or more of a "not gonna happen"?
Well i felt it was time yo leave but as i went to the ships i decided against it again as i didn't want to go back and be locked inside there again. And i knew Qarthah would still be working, left him so he could get a break and actually get something done...
I browsed the market and i clearly felt i was being watched. After walking around the city a bit to familiarize myself with it, i found myself back at the bar so i decided that i could just as well have another, less colorful drink.
I couldn't help but smile when i heard his voice a couple of hours and different drinks later. There is something pleasant about it.
We talked again and it seems that i am not the only one who has a past haunting me.
It pained me on my own behalf or his I am not sure and I wanted to reach out but restrained myself.
I got his interest peaked it seems but it will be dangerous ground to play such a game, and if i am not very careful ill end up vulnerable...
But the chance to know some of his secrets will be worth the risk...
And helping him with his mental stress will be an added bonus.
He wanted the fighting done tonight so i contacted Qarthan surprised to feel he was already on the planet. And he turned out to be in the bar. I felt slightly indignant. Was he spying on me? Why was he there. I made a mistake and went after him but he didnt seem angry only concerned for my safety. I told him to have faith in me before returning to Legion.
I know we have been parted for two years because Aurrunai captured me and the force prevent that from ever happening again...
We were to meet on Korriban for the fight and afterwards find a more suited place to have our little game, away from prying eyes and walls with ears.
I was nervous about the fight as we meet up at his ship. I changed into something more appropriate for fighting on the way.
As we stepped onto the hot sands of Korriban I felt my heart pound in my chest and the blood pumping in my veins like fire. Every muscle, every fiber was ignited and alert.
Qarthan was there to greet us.
Then it started, i don't remember much in detail, it all happened so fast but my jaw is still hurting.
I cant believe i won... He must have let me... I know Qarthan will say that i underestimate myself and maybe i do... But ill have to ask Legion about it at some point.
I went back with Legion surprised to learn that we were meeting with one of his associates... Interesting to say the least and finding out that he has surgical precession and skill.
I needed a bath the sweat from the fight making my shirt stick to my skin and feeling the sand scratch me every time i moved.
I lend his bath... Letting the water tend my sore face and wash the blood of.
Standing in the shower the images of his scarred chest ran through my mind. Not that i found it repulsive just that we had one more thing in common.
When i was finished and fully clothed again i went back surprised to find Qarthan sitting there.
I don't really know what he was doing there but the tension building between the two was unmistakable.
I could do nothing safe for just sit there and focus feeling the rage burn deep inside, focusing my breath and my mind.
When Qarthan decided to leave i went with him but not before i had talked to Legion and made a new arrangement for tomorrow.
I stood by the bay door for a long time i wanted to go back and finish what i started or at least show that i am true to my word, but i was to unsure if it would make things better or worse at this point... So i did nothing...
I have regretted that choice all night but there is nothing to do about it until later and then i will decide what to do.
When i returned with Qarthan to his ship we talked about why he had been so protective and that it needs to stop as it makes him vulnerable if the wrong people find out.
If he wants me to play the part of his apprentice then he needs to let me play it...
It was clear we wanted two different things that night...
Now lets see what the new day brings...
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